Sounds like you are projecting how you feel about yourself into assumptions of how others see you.

You write amazingly well for someone, who by your words, is cognitively slow. Some of our most beloved actors say they are very socially awkward in real life (along with almost everyone else on this planet at some point in their life, including me). Physical coordination ranges from the naturally athletic to those of use who could trip on a speck of dust...we balance each other out.

Work on your self esteem please...and don't base how you feel about yourself only by what you assume someone else feels about you. Just be you.