Currently really, really struggling...Started EMDR and had 2 treatments so far, both of which have been really good (albeit tough).

Coming home to relationship difficulties makes it all so hard.

When I first realised just how traumatised I had been by emotional/psychological (and ? perhaps yet to emerge...) abuse as a child, I arranged to see a trauma therapist and work with EMDR. My partner returned home from a few days away, and I shared the news of my forthcoming appointment with her - only to have her immediately reply that perhaps she should see the same therapist, also have EMDR and, oh by the way, she had also been abused as a child.

We have been together 18 years. I am so glad - for her - that she has finally told someone, but why then? (She is seeing a therapist, but a different one - and mine simply wouldn't see her because of BACP protocol anyway)

Now, 4 weeks later, she is constantly searching online about PTSD for herself. I feel utterly and completely hijacked.....

Whenever I share something personal, she has a reply of her own to make about her own feelings.

She chooses to tackle a difficult question via Facebook when I am over visiting my parents (now late 70s/early80s), knowing how difficult that visit would be.

She chooses to ask another difficult question when I am about to go to work AND have just seen an email from my father land in my Inbox - and had told her it had arrived.

I should add, I essentially a highly compassionate person, capable of true empathy. I generally put other peoples needs before my own - because I have been so conditioned to do so since childhood by my narcissistic mother.

Perhaps therapy is helping me find my own voice, realise that my needs DO in fact matter.

This all sounds so very selfish...but perhaps, just sometimes, we need to be..