I only cry when I'm alone. I'm female too. Sometimes I wish I could get all weepy in front of others because otherwise all they have to go on is me telling them with words how terrible I feel. It's like people don't get it unless you turn on the waterworks. So I have a problem with nobody knowing how down I am. I've cried twice in front of people in the last ten years. I don't like crying in front of others though so it's a catch-22. I'm just not a tearful person and if I am crying then things are very very bad.