Hi there. Today is my 50th Birthday and I am trying to have a good day but the truth be known I m not because I am not doing to well in my life right now. I know what I need to do and the changes I need to make but for some reason am not doing them. I have Bipolar and Substance Abuse Disorders and they have really got me down. I don't really have a good support system right now and I need one really bad. The mental health clinic that I go to has not had a Psychiatrist in over a year now and t my therapist is out on sick leave for god knows how long. I haven't gone to any group therapy in months and I feel like I am deteriorating inside. I know that if I really wanted to I could get help I guess if I traveled to a mental health facility in a different town but I for some reason have not taken that action. Anyway, I am just venting my feelings right now so thanks for listening.