Thanks for your input.

Yes, the lunch went well. He will be making this a permanent decision. I am broken hearted, but did not let on to that to him. We discussed the business end of things, and we are going to make sure to make some time together at least every other weekend. He is determined to continue with school (which he will come over to my house to do with my sister) and his medications, which I put the medication boxes together for them, so that will be predictable. I was able to get some moving boxes now, and wrap my head around the concept of packing and moving him out.

His lil sister (10) still shares time between houses, and really has no issues with step dad, so I have asked son to please be careful with any negative/unhappy comments he wishes to make about me or stepdad with lil sis around. I re-iterated to him that I have NEVER allowed any negative talk about his dad around them, and I would appreciate the same courtesy from him. He did say he understood, and will comply with that request.

No, my heart is not much better.
No, I don't think he is better off there.
No, I won't really recover from this easily.
Yes, I know that time will heal/soften this a bit, but it is not an easy thing to go through.

mjk