I pay on time, am punctual, engage as much as I can and am a "good" client in the p actual sense. My biggest stride, at our last session, was when my T finally saw that despite her good intentions, she will not be able to dissuade me from suicide when the time comes; and is starting to accept her role as the psychological equivalent of a palliative care nurse, with the help of her supervisor. I will not me the only person who ends their life in therapy and I am sure that people will find ways to accept this as a professional hazard. But it was the most important step in my therapy for her to realise that this is her role, not to try and persuade me of a different - and then my mind and beliefs, impossible - future. In that respect, I am one of her more difficult clients because she cannot "fix" me.