Can you get involved in therapy? I think you are unintentionally overwhelming yourself. I relate, it's an easy pattern of thinking to fall into. You talked to your pdoc who has helped you decided staying put is best for now...so that is relatively settled. But now you are leaping onto the next issue...when WILL you be ready? Will you EVER be ready? HOW will you build your self confidence to do these things, etc.?

Do you see what I mean? I'm just pointing out that you're already leaping into the next set of worries. The future is uncertain. We have today. Right now. Practicing mindfulness by staying in the movement helps remove these unhelpful thoughts. Planning is good - but I don't think you're planning. You're stressing and it will help you to stay within the moment. As the saying goes, worry is a down payment on something in the future that may never happen.

Get involved locally. Free room and board? Can't beat that - help out with meals, errands, yard work, companionship, etc. See what living arrangement you can work out where you are. If you are into church, that's a great way to meet people. Volunteer your time to those less fortunate than you. Take plenty of time for yourself. Take care.