When I first entered therapy, I was in so much turmoil because of a thought I kept having, that I had to spill the beans there and then and tell this thing about myself that I was trying to escape, I kept imagining shooting my young children and their playmates.

Of course I was never going to do this, BUT I didnt know that at that time, I was afraid of my own head.

After working through these thoughts, I can remember them now with no effect to myself, I am ok with the memory of them because I understand them for what they were.

I think inside we all have the possiblity to have these dark thoughts no matter how much we "hide" them from ourselfs, Maybe this sch shooting fear you have is feeling to close to home on some level for you?

just a thought.