I tried cutting and pasting but it didn't work, so I'll just answer here.

I believe the people who personally attack me have undiagnosed and untreated mental illness. I believe they are projecting onto me. I know my own mother did that, so I am quite sure strangers could easily do that.

I think that I don't trust people because I have PTSD and I'm hyper vigilant, not because I don't trust myself. There are very few people who have shown themselves to be trustworthy. I have an exacting standard of honesty.

What is shocking to me is to discover my mother might be a psychopath. I saw borderline and narcissistic traits in her, but psychopathy takes it up a notch I wasn't expecting.