Thanks for responding. ^_^

And.... the first weird dream was a few days ago (btw, no my sleep is horrible but that's normal for me i guess), anyways It was of me in the past... I got super sad and depressed as I watched everyone cross the stage to graduate.. I was in a cap and gown but I was never called up, then at the end they were like "oh i forgot here's yours" and left.. but I was so sad, and i wanted it so much (a feel that i've only gotten in one other instance... moving to another state and leaving my best friends behind... for a very long time I longed deadly to see them..) and then right before I woke up, I heard our clock dinging, and it only does a certain ding for each hour, and that's the dinging I had in my dream... but i woke up in the middle of it, to a silent room, and then right as I noticed it was silent I heard the clock sound off in that same ding...
But in reality I didn't go on the graduation stage, when I went into the hospital the last time it messed with my grades and such and it took until August for me to get my diploma.. but i'm not sad about the going up on stage.. (Oh! and in the dream i was like "This was my one and only chance and blew it!")
Anyways, now that I type it up it doesn't sound that weird, but there were many feelings in that dream and alot of it was... awkward looking.. (like smoke, and things floating around and stuff)

um... i still dont feel satisfied with how i explained how i feel.. T_T I hate when that happens and i can't think of a better way to explain it.

Well, nothing really has happend, but then again I can't say when something happens in my life... Unless its point blank I never seem to know.. just like when I was in the hospital earlier this year they'd be like "why?" and i'd be like "I dont know why i feel the way I do" and i became depressed just over raddling my brain over and over on why... and I never did find out why yet...

You know that bad feeling you get when you wake up from a bad dream? not just the fright, but.... a weird feeling.. (sorry that i can't explain it more), but that's what i'm feeling.... most of the day....