My general feeling is that mainstream healthcare should be avoided at all costs. In an emergency you sometimes have no choice but to engage with it. Most of the doctors I have seen are fanatical drug pushers and were more likely to harm than help.

Sounds traumatic what you went through.

Anyway, are you in a location where you have access to legal medicinal cannabis? Powerful stuff. Fair bit of evidence for efficacy with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and more.

Also might be worthwhile to seek out a doctor of Functional or Naturopathic medicine. This generally means going outside the mainstream system, which means higher cost, but likely you will be treated like a human being rather than than a piece of meat.