i am a challenging client. T has confirmed this for me a few times (i refereed to myself as 'difficult' and he re-framed to 'challenging', as he does not like the term difficult to describe a client). in fact, i think he confessed that i am one of the more challenging clients he has encountered in his 20 year career.

and you know what...?? i do not regret or carry any shame for being definded as a 'challenging' client. i use to feel guilty or worry that he would leave me for it, but he has remained committed. in fact, the way i view it, is if he can withstand all the challenges that i throw back at him, like questioning him, his methods, and his reactions towards me in the relationship, than in the long run i am actually probably providing him with some of the best practical training and experince that he will ever encounter. experince that he can use to help analyse himself better as a T and a human being and practical experince to use with future clients.

when i terminate therapy with my T, i would love to be able to hand him an invoice for all the services rendered.