Yes, age was most likely a factor. (aren't we adults at 24 though? i don't know) I'm sure it was a number of other things too. There's more to it than just what I've written. I've actually had some fairly wise people who know him as well tell me that he really did like me, but he had some serious problems, and was more messed up than I thought.
I think I've figured out what it really is that is bothering me. There's a definite double standard when I may be considered easy because I slept with him after 3 dates (knew him for 6 months prior) yet it is widely accepted and even expected these days that men will tabulate a one night stand score card. And the used girl is just supposed to label him a jerk, and move on. They should not be allowed to get away with that behavior. It really is unacceptable, and I would like to hear more women speak out against it. It seems like we've just learned to deal with it, forget it, move on, and make the same mistakes over and over again because.....oh well, boys will be boys, and hey if a girl is dumb enough to fall for it, she's fair game.......Men have a conscience. I expect them to listen to it. There are so many women now who've grown up without a father, and have never been taught how to read a man. We have to learn things the hard way. And just the same, guys have grown up without their dads to teach them to respect and honor women. We can't let them run around like wild packs of dogs doing whatever they want. It happened to me once. I could have kept sleeping with him hoping that he would eventually fall in love with me. But, I caught on real early. I wasn't going to compromise myself any further, however when you have feelings for someone, they don't just magically disappear. He was really lucky to have my heart, but the more I think about it, he probably just couldn't handle it at this time. Oh, and I re-read what 50 said. I think he actually meant don't give your heart away so easily. I guess next time I fall for someone, I just will try my best not to show it.