I'm with you on this, gina. Good hypo for me is getting an amazing amount of work done well, building custom shelving in our walk-in closet, playing pool and ping-pong with my boys, playing dolls and dancing with my younger daughters, and cooking and cleaning with my wife.

Bad hypo is me stuck building a computer, trying night and day to figure out whether it's the motherboard bios or video card chipset that's causing problems, isolating myself and working on the budget to nail down every single dollar we own, working really long hours, etc.

One time I had a great psychiatrist explain hypo to me this way: it's all those good feelings and accomplishments in one or two areas of life, while letting the other one or two major areas of life go neglected. For example - excelling at work while the home life goes to $h1t. Or excelling at home and entertainment while work or whatever other major item in your life goes to h311 in a handbasket.

He said that's basically the definition of hypo. Not manic to the point of running naked down the street, or psychotic to the point where you think you can jump off a church steeple and fly, but given time in that state, one or more major areas of your life will be negatively affected....and we with BP might be totally clueless as to the damage we are causing others.

I know this is true with me when I am hypo, and even though I crave hypo like a drug, my choice is to be stable as best I can and to work with my docs to ensure the right cocktail is on-board. I despise the necessity of taking meds, some of which have serious side effects, but in the end it's my choice as I believe in the long run it will provide the best possible outcome - not just for me, but fir those I love and am responsible to and for.

Med compliance is a choice, and I choose it.