Yes, I can totally relate to this.
Very numb most of the time. C-PTSD Dissociative type.
I hate it, but in some ways it's better than being tossed about by extreme emotions.

After my adult traumas I felt nothing, and I tried to act like I thought someone who'd been through that would act. I was only young -18 so I didn't understand what was happening. It makes me sad /embarrassed to think about it.

I sometimes wonder how much of it (numbness) is related to medication too.

Best, Zel.