I tend to trap myself in cyclical thoughts that usually make no sense and will repeat them in therapy and my T will just stop me and be like: Wait. Listen to yourself! That doesn't make sense!
For instance, one day in session I was talking about how I did not like going home because it reminded me of how I was successful in high school but a failure in university, that I used to be smart by now I'm dumb, etc. etc.
and she was like: ????? Annie. Listen to yourself. What you're saying doesn't make sense! I don't get it! You make straight A's. You are smart! etc.
She was very kind and funny yet very blunt about it -- exactly my style. I miss her.
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