That is just an incredible set of horrible experiences. I can tell you were really invested in your health and kept trying: only to be screwed over and over.

I think people keep recommending that you try things out is because some of us have had good luck with the system and meds.

I am so sorry you have had so many traumatic experiences. When I was admitted to detox they had a student come in and grill me for over an hour like I was a mouse in a cage. I was drunk when I went in so I just gave my permission. I thought I had to do everything they said. They also locked the doors behind me so I couldn't leave. This was before I had signed any sort of paper. Once you're in they call your insurance, make sure you can pay and then off you go.

The only real help I can offer is this:
I take Source Naturals Wellness Formula supplement. I can honestly say they changed my life. They brought me out of walking pneumonia and I feel have kept me really physically healthy. As I was taking them I noticed my depression symptoms were really improving as well. I was energetic, happy and involved. I actually gave out bottles to a few friends. I realized this past weekend I have forgotten to take them for a few weeks as I was prescribed a new med. I am going right now to start up again. 2 in the morning, 2 in the evening.

Also, my psychiatrist has given me Atenelol for my familial tremors. My hands shake unless I take this medicine. Of all the meds I take this is a miracle for me. No more shaking! I am an artist who does detailed work and this med saved me.

These are just things that worked for me. I really hope someday you find the right people in your life that can help you.