Hi, I can relate to what you said as I often feel fat and ugly no matter what. Unlike you though, I was never anorexic. I did struggle with bullimia in the past and had to stop since I was having a lot of issues with stomach pain. It wasn't healthy. I'm fat now since it's part genetic, ugh. I'm trying to loose weight for good now, but it's hard!

I hope that you get help for your anorexia, or did. Starving yourself will only cause your body to store even more fat eventually. That's why you gained weight so quickly. Your body thinks it's starving so after awhile you won't loose any weight.

Just try to eat a normal and healthy diet of 1200 calories a day and only eat fresh whole foods like lean meat, veggies, fruits, beans, whole grains, sweet potatos, and no processed foods, white carbs like bread, rice, pasta, potatos, or anything with sugar in it including dry fruit and juice. No soda.

Eat a small meal every two hours with only one serving of carbs in it to keep from getting really hungry throughout the day. And drink lots of water. Google stuff on low glycemic foods for more info. It does keep you full and you'll probably loose weight eating that way too. And do light exercise like walking and lift light weights too as muscle burns fat. You won't get bulky that way.

As for acne, don't wash your face more than once a day. Do it once in the morning, and once at night. Use oil free non comedegnic makeup that's free of parabens, sulfates, and dyes.

Try Alba's oil free aloe and green tea moisturizer. It's usually only $20 at CVS, Walgreens, and Target. It smells really good, it's not tested on animals, and it has no crap in it. Use it after cleaning your skin in the morning and at night.

Don't use harsh acne products like Oxy, it'll dry out your skin. Try The Body Shops tea tree oil and cleanser. The cleanser is great. I LOVE the toner. It gets rid of dirt and oil really well. Just don't use it around your eyes. It has a nice scent and it tingles when it cleans. You can find it at the Body Shop in most malls, on amazon,com, and Ulta stores. It's easiest to find it in the Body Shop as most of their products sell out quick at Ulta.

The tea tree oil is good for small to medium sized zits. Also, use a facial mask a few times a weeks, but not everyday. Use a face scrub to get rid of dead skin cells everyday. I like the Shea Moisture African soap one. You can find it at CVS and Walgreens. Sometimes its on sale too. Ulta has it too.

It's a fine scrub and it detoxify's the skin. It's natural too. Don't touch your face, and wear your hair back in a pony tail when you sleep. Change your pillow cases often. Take off all makeup as soon as you can, especially after a workout or coming home after a long day. Never sleep in it.

NYX has a good eye makeup remover that's cruelty free. As for the body hair, I have a lot that grows on my face. Get a lighted magnifying mirror. And a good pair of tweezers. Use it at night as you can see things better than for some reason. Tweeze those stray hairs and then wax the rest or use hair remover cream for the face. Do the same with the brows, chin, and other places like the sides. Get a professional to wax everything.

Most nail salons don't charge much for waxing. Find a good one near you. Also, waxing your body keeps the hair off longer. Try that. It does hurt though!

If you follow my advice, you'll find that your skin will clear up. Eating healthy is crucial for good skin. As is using good natural products. Try to use cruelty free makeup, not the cheap drug store crap that's full of chemicals. If you can't afford good makeup, then use e..l.f (eyes lips face) that you can find at most drug stores and Target. And NYX is good too.

Also, use makeup wipes if you wear makeup from brands like say yes to Cucumbers or Blueberries, etc....you can find those wipes at Target and Drugstores too. Alba makes makeup remover wipes for acne prone skin too that are also good. Again, drink lots of water. And clean all makeup brushes once a week in you use them as well as sponges with soap and water.

If all else fails, get a good esthecian (sp?) Mine picks my blackheads, whiteheads, and small pimples when I do get them once every two weeks. The treatment is expensive but worth it. If that doesn't work, then see a good dermatologist who can get you on accutane or something like that. Then as a last resort get tested for PCOS. That can cause acne and excessive facial hair as well as difficulty loosing weight. That's only as a last resort though if nothing else works, it could be a medical issue.