Thanks everybody, I loved the ((((((((((responses))))))))))))))
they gave me an inner smile to go. and fnordian was a definite LOL.
I did get triggerd by it.
I think he was an N. ('he'?). What he did was made himself the frame of reference for weather you
sincerely want to recover. So, in other words, whatever genuine real self motivation one might have had about recovery, he was setting himself up as judge of it, in other words, 'appropriating', what is naturally yours, which is what Ns do, so it would no longer be about your recovery, but about his approval,... there it is.... 'its all about me' And also the essay, sets u;p the 'slave-master relationship', he gets the schizoid 'doing his bidding', uughhhh! he gets to feel the authority and in power.

Well when I read that, I watched myself go into my pd response, I wanted to climb the wall and stirr up trouble, rescue those poor fools who had got in there, - if they were alive. And also I got that wierd physical response that i do to hidden agendas. But I just watched myself do it, and it was only slight, and there was no way I was really about to get tangled up with this.
It was nice to share it here instead.
thanks for contributing all your sanity here.

river