I am chronically black and white. So black and white. Always thinking in extremes-- it can only be one way or the other. But sometimes I find the grey when I'm not looking so hard for it. Sometimes it's within the black and white. I can be very black and white with my T at times-- all love for him one moment, hating him the next. But then there are those times in which I realize that I can hold multiple feelings for him at the same time-- that's the gray. It's in there.

I don't like too much gray-- don't want things to get boring. Gray sometimes makes me nervous because I feel like I'm spinning in outer space, unable to attach myself to anything-- I am so used to the extremes.

I do a lot of writing and then I try to pick up on the contradictions... I see that I feel one way.... then the other... then I realize that I am feeling both things together.... and that's kind of gray.

I can definitely relate to this, Fuzzzzzz.