I cant go to the ER it will only mess up my custody issue, I cant deal with these beings speaking to me. My friend is willing to lock me in her house until I can fall asleep. I am afraid that she is not trustworthy, I cant miss anymore work. Nothing seems like it will work for me. Thinking about dipping into my stash of painkillers, they usually make me sleep. but that is a scary road for me to travel down. I wish my meds would just work.