I think I would have done better in college and grad school grade-wise and I would have more friends.

I have all the things everyone wants; loving husband and child (actually they are the best that has ever happened to me), nice house, 2 good friends, savings, career etc. Then I feel guilty because how can I be depressed with all that in my life. Instead I walk around feeling fat and homely and a failure at my career. Lately I have been struggling and I took a nap rather than go to a party yesterday. I wanted to go but I was too damn tired. Today I couldn't make myself call my best friend to wish her a happy birthday. I feel terrible about that but I will call her tomorrow. Too bad guilt doesn't motivate me.