I have a very addictive personality. I can basically become addicted to anything. About 9 years ago I used cocaine everyday up to three times a day. It nearly ended my life. I went to rehab for a month after I told my parents and asked for help. When I came out of rehab I felt an intense emptiness. Like nothing or no one could fill.

So I started drinking, among other things, first only casual, but then more regularly. It also got out of hand. I started seeing a new pdoc who was absolutely against drinking and about three years ago I quit drinking.

Sadly I still smoke I am in the process of quitting as we speak...

All I actually wanted to say is sobriety is hard. And although it does get easier it somehow always stays at the back of my mind. I lost a lot of friends because I can absolutely not spend time with them because of their habits. It may be harsh - but it is that or falling back into old patterns.

You can make it. Be honest with your T...