Dear TishaBuv,
Sometimes the disappointments hurt so much! I also have some disappointments in my life that I wonder if I will ever get over.
But, as long as we are alive, maybe some more good things can eventually happen. In the meantime, like you've said in other posts; we have to find little things to smile about. And I know you've said that you have found a new therapist. Maybe that will help. In the meantime, I hope you find some small things to smile about today. And try to think about some of the "wins" you may have had over the course of your life as well. I'm not saying it's easy.
Sincerely, Myst