Losing your life would be the worst loss to your blood parents, than you having to lose your job.

I empathise

Besides, you told me you don't feel the same way about your job like once you used to have. Continue-ing in the same path, might not improve your current situation. Finding a new, and stable job can always be found another day.

You have survived a suicide attempt, that's life telling that you have another chance given to continue living. You have came this far and yet survived, I think it's definitely not by luck at all.

Lastly, Forgive yourself, it's not your fault that you are who you are right now. If you have overcame a near-death experience, it means you should stand up and pushing yourself to be stronger again! It's not everyday that you see a suicide victim escaping death, because you're special!