Oh man. All of my really bad episodes end bad, usually with me in the hospital after an overdose, except for this recent one. So I always feel really guilty and ashamed.

So, I've never done anything completely awful during an episode since a lot of what I experience is internal, but it just always ends bad and I end up really hurting my family and over my summer episode completely ruining my life.

I don't know how to get over it in all honesty. I'm still working on that.

Hugs, searching.