I saw my current T today. I tried talking about the fact that I was still very hurt by her behaviour in August (completely ignoring me for two weeks + complete change of boundaries). She got mad and said that we weren't working and that I should just move on. I said: "how can I move on? You've hurt me a lot" Then she said: "well, as an adult, you then need to draw the logical conclusion and leave" Just like that. I need to leave. Or I need to move on. I can't talk about what happened anymore. And I'm forbidden to email or text (except for scheduling) now. Please don't tell me I have to leave her because I can't. I have zero support besides her and all she offers is 50 minutes a week. Nothing else. I'm on my own the rest of the week. If I could find another therapist, but how? How many therapists will I have to see until I find the right one? Maybe the right one doesn't exist. I'm honestly hopeless.
|