gopi007bond, many of mine center around being lost. Searching for something or trying to get to someone. Twice in the past month I have had panic attacks in my dreams. Now, whether in actuality I was panicking in my sleep I don't know, but it felt real in my dreams. The therapist I saw last (july/august) just didn't get it. I don't think anyone does. I need HELP with the anxiety that skitters under my skin. I need help with the depression that hurts my heart so badly I just don't know what to do. If I could run away, I would. But, I can't. Taking care of my 88 y/o MIL and sometimes she is not nice. She lives on her own and my husband and I take care of most her needs, but we are the ones she throws under the bus. Her other children do not come around. A phone call once a month and they're done. These are the boundaries the therapist wanted me to set. I have. I am going to stick to them too. But, when she pushes her first alert button (that we have paid for 5+ years) at 3am b/c she hears something, WE are the ones who respond. No, she won't go to a nursing home or living center. Out of the question. I just want to take my husband and run away where there is no one pulling at us 24/7. Please, oh please, don't tell me how blessed I am to have her. My parents died at 54 and 71. I WAS blessed to have them.