Hey! So, maybe you don't want to here this but that all seems pretty normal to me.
It sounds like you're just super imaginative and are scared that that makes you abnormal. I play a lot of D&D with my friends, and the biggest complaint I get is that I get "too into the game". It's not that I start thinking that these characters, with their fully developed backgrounds and psyches, are real. It's that I treat them as if they are because I love the character I created. Like being really passionate about a character from a book or a movie or a video game. And thats usually because you see some of yourself in them. Which is not bad, because we all process through fiction in one way or another. Maybe by creating these alternate worlds and characters in them, you're also creating a space where you can explore alternative viewpoints to your own, or different ways of managing a situation that you wouldn't normally do?
Have you ever played D&D? It's a good way of exploring "alternate universes" and stuff like that, and from what you said you'll probably really like it.
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These sort of thoughts can get..."Too entertaining" I guess, and I may begin to squirm in my chair or even run across the room out of nowhere. Please keep in mind that these thoughts get triggered mostly when I listen to meaningful music and video games!! .-.
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So, this piece really stuck out for me, because I also do this! Whenever theres a really intense lead up in a movie, or anticipation, or stuff like that... I mean I can't really put my thumb on exactly what triggers it, but usually when I'm watching TV or movies, or playing D&D (that happens a lot), and occasionally when watching the news or live theatre. What it is for me is a "too much feelz" switch going off in my head. Doesn't matter what that feelz is, just that its there and it's trying to push over 100%. So I usually run like a headless chicken out of the room, or politely say "I'm going for a smoke" or "anyone want a snack" and then leave. Or I throw the blankets over my head and giggle maniacally until it's over. Weird yes, but not a mental illness. (although, I do have social phobia, so..... maybe related?) It can be embarrassing but my friends all find it kind of amusing and so I'm able to just laugh it off.
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Odd Desirings
This is going to be embarrasing.. When I was younger, I used to get made fun of a lot, and I hated a variety of my classmates. If I hated them enough, I had imaginations of me breaking into their house and...Well..."Getting revenge". And when I say "Getting revenge", I mean writing stuff on their body with a permanent marker so that if they went to school the next morning, so they would be humiliated. I even had imaginations of shaving all of their hair off and perhaps some violent actions. Keep in mind that I was 6/7 years old....
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Once more, this doesn't seem odd to me. This actually seems pretty normal and healthy.
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Odd Likings
Now, onto the third part. This happened started a few months ago.
Let me just start off by saying I'm probably not depressed. For the most part, I like my life and have had no suicidal thoughts.
All of a sudden, I've had this weird liking for creepy, depressing things. I read some disturbing stories/videos online and listened to depressing songs and I had this strange feeling of...Pleasure? I'm pretty sure it wasn't sexual arousal, but it just felt...Good. However, it simultaneously felt odd at the same time.
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There is nothing wrong in liking depressing things, and it's normal to feel pleasure when experiencing art, especially art that you like or that resinates with you. My favourite short story is The Lottery. I love dystopia settings in most things, especially because the author or creator is being very open about what that actually means. To me this sounds like your tastes have changed and you're not sure why just that they have and you like it. Maybe try figuring out what you like about these "depressing things". Also, in art, depressing is some what subjective i think, as one person might say something is depressing because it shows the oppression of a subject, and another might say its hopeful because it shows the reaction of a subject to oppression. Arts weird like that.
Anyway, it sounds to me like you need to do some serious thinking on who you are, and then find a way to be okay with that, because you haven't really pointed out anything that to me sounds like a mental health concern, or really even that weird. Just normal stuff no one really talks openly about so it's sometimes hard to realize its normal.
Seriously though, see if you can find some ppl to play D&D with. Its really good for self exploration imo, as well as just creating new and awesome characters in fictional worlds.

With other people!
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