Yes I used to be fully convinced I had BPD...I even told my boyfriend I had it once. Another example of my stupid attention seeking or whatever it would be. Now reading the description I'm not sure. Covert narcissism feels right but so did BPD a couple years ago. Also I am really really self aware from having OCD and ruminating about myself so much. So even though I know that I'm doing these things, I don't feel that excludes me.