I've got 9 months clean off opiates, crack and alcohol. Here's what I did. I oded. Went to detox, then went to a 30 day rehab, followed up by intensive outpatient for 3 months, followed up by aftercare for 2 months. Also going to NA and AA. I went to 90 meetings in 90 days, I got a sponsor, I erased my dealer's number out of my phone. Believe me, it wasn't easy. I stopped hanging around with the people I used with, I stopped going to the places I used at, I stopped even driving on the same street as the liquor store. I identified my triggers...what caused me to want to use and I avoided them. I worked on relapse prevention and dealing with those tumultuous feelings of early sobriety in therapy. I mostly hang out with other recovering addicts, I call them when I want to use, before I use. I go to the local detox and take the AA meeting in there on Monday nights. I chair meetings. My life has gotten 100% better. No way am I ever going back to the prison of using. That hopeless dark place where I hate myself. No, I'm out of that deathtrap, just for today. Life is good, not perfect, but easier, way more open, cooler, better. Like the world starts to open up. Don't give up before the miracle happens. I too have BPD, Bipolar and am a recovering addict and alcoholic. NA and AA have saved my life. They aren't perfect but they have the highest success rate out there. Keep an open mind, be willing and most of all, stay honest. That's how to kick this disease in its ***.