I only get to use my phone for 15 minutes every hour. Maybe because I went voluntary??

They want to try gabapentin and clozapine or something like that. I don't want to take these meds. I want to get home and finish the work I have started. My kids are with my mom, my confused wife won't even take them while I am in here. My mom drinks at night. What if one of them gets hurt or sick.

At least the darn demons are not telling me what to do. Told me not to take my am meds. This is getting confusing to write. I am sorry I don't know what to do, when I try to meditate I think bad thoughts.