Our homework after first session was to make a list of what we wish we could change about each other and a To Do list of what each other should do.

I've been thinking about it all week. At this point, I don't have a wish of what I want. What I keep coming up with is a list of wishing I could change my feelings, knowing I can't change him and make him someone he is not.

I'm not sure what I am going to write.

I don't even want to ask for anything anymore.

Feeling like there's too much inherently wrong with me. Feeling too hurt. Just feeling too sick to do anything.