It's final. My mother is moving in November. I have to find my own place by then. I don't know how I'm going to afford it. I don't know how to feel about this. I can't blame my mother for moving in with her mom, because she can't afford housing, but that leaves me in a difficult situation. I can't be mad at her. However, a main factor she is moving so soon is because her mom is pressing her to move in so that she isn't so lonely during the holidays. I don't know how I'm going to survive this winter. I truly have no idea. If I weren't on an anti depressant now I'd break down and probably kill myself. Good thing I'm on one. I don't know what to do.

My best option is to find a room for rent somewhere closer to my work. That way rent is at a minimal and the utilities are paid for. I just don't know where I can find a place, let alone one that accepts my cat. I can't leave my cat behind. I get her the day I got out of the hospital after my year long psychosis. She's been with my through thick and thin.

But I don't know how I will afford my car payments, rent, medicine, phone bill, and food all at the same time. I can barely make it as it is. Furthermore I paint and drywall for a living. There are no exteriors to paint during the winter making work very scarce. Not to mention snow days.

I don't know what to do.