I am in the same boat as you. I have been with this pdoc about 13 years...she knows my ups and downs and really became too involved with my drinking issues this past year. judging me. so told her off in a letter/email reminding her of my psych history in regards to meds. She was very cool when I saw her last. So was grateful for that.
But now I feel like she wants to discharge me because i refuse to be abstinent from alcohol she thinks I am in denial.
She also thinks I am under medicated....that I like my hypomania too much.
I am afraid that if I change pdocs they will want to change my meds which I am afraid to do. It is the devil you know sort of thing.
bizi