I woke this morning barely functioning and in physical pain from my ongoing relationship problem. Then I stood up to a misguided aggressive person. It wasn't even about me, but it made my heart race for an hour, my whole body shake, severe muscle pain across my back, my neck and wrist injuries and arthritis flare up, even made my scalp itch. I took a bath and still couldn't relax.

I felt the hot wave of stress wash over me and wondered if I am a stress junkie, a massochist, if I am drawn to drama, and seeking it on purpose, like an addiction.

My what a broken down mess am I.