Thank you, Yours_Truly and Fuzzybear.

Just want to add how increasingly frustrated I have been with myself about all of this as well. I feel like a failure. I am only 19 and yet it appears on all fronts that my life is ruined - obliterated, even. Blasted to smithereens. I don't know why I have kept going even this long. I feel like I have overstayed my welcome on this rock.

Each day I tell myself, "This is it. This is the only day you get to lay around moping and feeling bad for yourself. Tomorrow you will pull yourself out of this funk and get $h*t done". But we all know depression doesn't work like that, and mine is no exception.