So, I have been feeling off today - anxiety in my chest, distracted, unable to concentrate, drawn to watch stuff that prompts a sense of desperation...

And then, I came across a FB message about a guy who disappeared from his hotel room, where his wallet, cell phone, and all other identifying things were found. I got such an impulse to want to run away - leave everything that could track me behind. Not sure why - it feels like ideation. I can't get it out of my mind, even though I know I won't do it. And the hole in my chest feels like it's growing as a result.