Thread: Scared yet safe
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Old Sep 07, 2016, 05:31 PM
Anonymous37918
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I was diagnosed with PTSD years ago while my most recent diagnosis is 'unspecified phobic anxiety disorder'. I can't afford therapy at the moment as I lost my job due to all my health difficulties..

My biggest problem right now is that I'm scared of pretty much everything. As a very young child, I went through something where I was sure I was going to die, but no one ever helped me work through this which I think skewed my perception of fear - it's like, whenever I'm scared, I'm sure I'll die. And because dying would be the most horrible thing ever, I'm scared of and avoid everything 'just in case'.. To keep myself safe.

I thought I'd start this thread where we could share our experiences of things/situations/people/anything that scares us but where we have, in fact, been safe.. I feel this would really help me.

So, I'll go first.. I've been afraid that someone's going to hurt me during the night, but this has never happened. No one has ever attacked me, I've been safe. Part of this has also been the fear of someone breaking into my home which also has never happened. In my childhood home, we even sometimes forgot to take the key out of the lock at night and still, never had any problems.

I'm also afraid of driving. Mostly, I fear I'll hurt someone else, or that someone I love will hurt themselves. But nothing has ever happened, we've always been safe. While I'm an insecure driver, I'm also very calm and careful behind the wheel.

I've been dead scared of having to cry in front of people, but it's happened several times in the past few years, and no one has ever had a bad reaction. They all wanted to help me. I was safe.

I'll think of more, would love to hear from others as well!