At my last appt with my pdoc, he said that they were not scheduling appointments until after he had a meeting with the staff that day, and that they would be calling. No call. Which is pretty usual for this office. They are horrible about office stuff, the pdoc always runs late, often over an hour, you always get the answering machine when you call and they often don't return the call etc. The only reason I have stuck with him is because he is the only addictionologist (bet you didn't know that is a thing) within 50 miles. And I have a history of alcoholism.

So, about a week and half ago, T2 told me that two of her other clients got calls from pdoc's office cancelling their appointments and telling them the practice was closing. She wanted to let me know.

I did ok at first, thinking about who I might see for psych meds, what I would look for in a new pdoc, that sort of thing. But I told T3 about it yesterday and she said that for someone with abandonment issues, I sure get this alot (I started seeing her when ex-t decided to retire and I was devastated by that). During the same session, T3 talked about when she worked in a state run hospital full of people with DID. She had mentioned it one other time and that was actually about all that I knew about her life. She talked about reading a book to a 3 year old at the end of her shifts and hoping desperately that the client would regroup and wouldn't have to be sent to the ER at the end of her shift.

As I left, one of my littles was feeling upset because she wanted T3 to read to her. Which was rather astonishing because I don't tend to rely at all on women. As I sat with that, I realized that I really have been dumped by pdoc. No call, no letter, no offer of enough refills to get me to an appt with a new dr, no instructions about how to get medical records. The message on the answering machine is still the same, nothing about closing. Nothing. I went by the office and it has a closed sign. That is all.

Right now I am thinking about filing a complaint. I know I don't need to make a decision right away, but there is an angry teenage part that is demanding I do something.