I'm not doing well. At all. I can't stop crying and I didn't go in to work today and I couldn't even call in sick so now I don't know if I have a job. I keep thinking I should go IP but I've never done that before except through the ER and that 72 hours in CPEP is awful. Plus I don't know how I'd pay my bills if I do that. So.... I don't know where I'm at. I have a friend who thinks I should go but he also said I should get disability (so I can pay my bills while I'm IP) and he has no idea how long that takes and how little it pays.