Hello hadleyrae: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Yes, therapy is a long-term process. And sometimes it simply can't be of sufficient help soon enough. This is one situation where psych med's can be very important... to keep the wolf away from the door, so to speak, until therapy has had time to be of benefit. So, if you're not currently on med's, this may be something you'll need to consider. But, under any circumstances, if you're feeling suicidal, please reach out in real life for the help you need.