My very first diagnosis I didn't believe and ignored it and continued to partaaaayy!!! I was 19, I didn't care! But eventually everything caught up with me and I took it seriously many years later. Everything made sense and I was grateful to finally know why I was the way I was because for years I wanted to know why I had to live like this. Things have calmed down so much since then. It's shocking at first, but med management and relapse prevention are important tools that have helped me drastically. And we're all here for support with any questions and/or concerns you have.