I didn't even know I was diagnosed until I was IP a couple of years back. My pdoc then said she wasn't concerned about the diagnosis, just treating the symptoms. I had a bad depression, anxiety and PTSD for years. I guess I felt kind of relieved, because it made sense. I suppose it would be harder if my family had it. (I seem to think my dad may have had it but was undiagnosed.) I don't want to be like anyone in my family, but that's neither here or there. I do hope you'll improve and life gets better for you.