Well the meeting was a disaster i wasn't actually allowed to go but my mum came back fuming a doctor who i asked specifically not to have any involvement in my care in any way shape or form decides to tell my mum all this bs that is not true about me and tells my mum she is a terrible parent and has no clue what is going on because she is no longer involved in my care and pretty much was a waste of everyones time the psychologist here went in though and he also thought she was ridiculous. So i still have no idea what is happening but last night everything started getting really fast again i was with one of the spirits that is good and is a friend and they said i should stop taking the meds for a few reasons and i promised i would but i did take it this morning and now i feel bad