Sorry to hear that rainbow. I lived in fantasy as well for many years. That's my comfort zone and what in used to. I can't imagine having to separate myself from that. I brought it up to my T and she ignored me. It's how I've coped throughout my life so i can relate. Relationships with Ts can at times become complicated and painful. It's easy for us to become attached and want so much more from it to fill in that void. When Ts reinforce boundaries and bring to our awareness the reality of the therapeutic relationship then it's difficult for some of us to fathom.