Today I freaked out.

It's a hard week for me as tomorrow is the anniversary of my dads death. It's always difficult.

I was in a coffee shop I frequent when three police officers came in. I'm triggered by guns. The hot flash hit me and I started to panic. I couldn't move except to sit hide my eyes. I sat and tried to focus my breathing. I tried to remind myself they wouldnt hurt me but I was so scared. Time seemed to last forever and I felt like I was in a dream.

Off and on today I still feel like I'm in a dream and things are not real...

It's horrible. I remember feeling like this most of the time I was IP for psychosis.