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Originally Posted by kecanoe
Over the last month or so, I have actually had the thought several times that I am going to get better. I have been in therapy for 9 years, was diagnosed DID in 2011. T3 was surprised and sad that it has taken me this long to reach this point. I am not there yet. But just thinking that I will be there someday feels good.
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My hope is that that's true! I'm sorry that it has taken that long for you too. I hope you get to that place of being ok. Whatever that looks like for you. To me it mentally looks and feels like it would be an exhale of .... "ok"
It's just a weird place to be. It's like the realization of what has always been, came flashing into my world a little over 2 years ago.
Then, there was this anxious feeling of trying to figure this out, understand it, get a grip on it. I don't know.
Maybe the more I understand and the more I can dissect the triggers, just makes me more aware to what has always been. More sensitive to the dissociation and actually feeling it. Maybe that is progress. Maybe that is a step toward being "ok"
It's like there is too much information in my head and I'm standing with a foot in two worlds. That sounds "out there" but don't know any other way to describe it.
Does that make sense? It's really a weird feeling. It's like living on two different planes.