I'm a miserable and bitter middle-aged man. I must come off like Statler or Waldorf from the Muppet Show.

Mental Illness doesn't mix well with it either. Even on meds, I'm still a downer. I've went back and re-read some of my posts and thought "damn, that's hateful". I'm sorry for that. No wonder I'm alone.

I know I'm not hurting anyone but myself. Everyone else is living their own lives and could care less while I live in a destructive self-imposed exile.

When I try to just let it all go, I fail miserably. I'm impeding my own progress in life while the years just trickle away. What a waste.

Someone once told me that if I turned all this negative energy into positive energy that I would be unstoppable. That hit me like a shock wave.

I'm sick of being bitter, hateful, alone, and ignored. I want to bring joy into other peoples lives.

Has anyone conquered this and how did you do it?

Thanks