Hey guys.
Had an interview yesterday to become a volunteer for Mind. The woman said she thinks I'd make a good mentor which is nice. The training is in October but that's okay because I'm going on holiday end of September.
I read a really helpful article called understanding psychosis by the bps. It's completely opened my eyes as to what I believe about this "illness". I've realised that I don't see it as an illness, I see it as part of who I am. I want to learn to live with my experiences rather than being afraid of them and drugging them out of me.
I know this view isn't helpful to a lot of people but it helps me.
So yeah I've talked to my bf and I've stopped taking my meds. I feel free. They were making me so tired all the time but today I've woken up feeling fresh and awake for the first time in months! I also think they've made me put on weight so I can't wait to get that off again.
I feel like everything depends on your perspective of things, and I've changed my perspective so things should be better this time.
I'm sorry if this angers anyone, I know this forum is very pro meds.